Preparing to be Spontaneous

Last night most of the trustees went home, and some of us stayed for a WESTAF symposium in Boulder titled The New Face of Arts Leadership in the West. This event, the latest in a series of symposia on intriguing subjects, focuses on diversity through the lens of youth. The two facilitators, Brenda Allen and Shane Moreman, gave a keynote after dinner that was a combination rap battle and Socratic dialog. Shane, who is half Mexican and half white, led off with a rant about how sick and

My role as WESTAF chair at the symposium, which continues today, is to tell people where the bathrooms are and thank them for coming. This will give me a chance to keep my mouth shut and listen. I hope I don't miss that chance, squandering my silent receptivity in outbursts of goofy enthusiasm. I can't help it sometimes. I am so proud to be part of this quirky regional arts organization, and to be supporting its executive director, Anthony Radich, who is a Croatian-American and has an ancestor who fought for Napoleon. I am one-fourth French, making me a Franco-Anglo-American. Not a person of color, as the term is normally used, but someone who is entranced by opportunities to see new colors and hear words I've never heard before. To prepare to be spontaneous.
Friday, October 21, 2005
Writer's Helpers
Claire is wisely wary of the long drop from my desk to the floor. She steps carefully toward the edge and watches pedestrians on the 16th Street Mall. She perks up her ears at sirens. She scratches and licks a Tattered Cover Bookstore bookmark and stands on top of Cheever's postage-stamp dream. I dream that she will curl up in the empty In Basket so I can turn to work on poetry. Instead she is chewing on the bookmark with her little butt next to my left hand on the keyboard. Then she stands on three legs, scratching her left cheek with her right foot. I wait to write again while she laps my left thumb with her long little tongue.
Part of why Cheever's journal helps me in my own writing is that it provides glimpses of the backstory to his incredible fiction. His work, like anyone's, proceeded amidst a recognizable array of hopes and fears. In fact, his work is precisely made up of the elements that he named so candidly in the journals.
The first page of a new journal, and I hope to report here soon that the midle section of the Wapshots has fallen into shape. I expect that I will continue to report here that I drink too much.